I’m staring at this blank page with so many emotions and lessons learned, trying to figure out how to type them out for other people to understand and relate to.
First and foremost, thank you for ALL of your support in the last few months. I love our listeners and you guys really did help get me through this…
As most of you know, a couple of months ago I broke up with my boyfriend for the final time whom I was on and off with for about 5 years. It was one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do in my entire life. At the time, I only knew one thing and it’s that we NEEDED to be apart. We weren’t good for each other.
I’m here to tell you my story, the things I’ve learned from this experience and the decision I made that changed my future.
Obviously after being together for so long, we did everything together. We stayed at the beach in his condo together all summer, apartment in Tuscaloosa all football season, went on family vacations etc. His family was MY family. We had all the same friends and we always hung out with them at HIS house. I was asked to be a bridesmaid in some of his best guy friend’s weddings because I had gotten so close to them and their girlfriends/fiancés.
For anyone looking in from the outside, you would have thought that he and I would be together forever. When people thought of him, they thought of me. When they thought of me, they thought of him. I can’t even begin to name how many times we were asked “Why aren’t you guys engaged yet?”
It wasn’t a relationship like everyone thought it was…
I can’t sit here and say that we didn’t have great times because I have so many fond memories with him and I will always hold onto them. We just had so many differences and as time went on, things just kept getting worse. We couldn’t even enjoy ourselves around each other anymore. At Concerts, weddings, mardi gras balls, etc. while all of our friends were dancing and having a great time, we would be in the corner arguing somewhere. It was miserable.
We didn’t see eye to eye on the future either. His family owns a business down here that he will eventually take over and I have a passion for radio that I hope will lead me to bigger places. He never wanted to move away and said that if I left, he wouldn’t come with me because there is nothing for him in the places I want to go…. I can’t blame him. Everything he has is here.
While there are other events that went down that I will not go into detail on, we broke up.
All of the sudden everything was different. I felt alone. His family (who was also MY family) was not talking to me, I didn’t hear from any of OUR friends because they were all comforting him. I couldn’t go hang out with anyone because all our friends were at HIS house or HIS condo or hanging out with HIS family. I was distant from everyone I knew because I didn’t want to have to explain what happened to us to anyone. Mostly because I couldn’t, I didn’t know how to put it into words and I definitely didn’t feel like talking about it.
Of course, from living in a small town where everyone knows everyone, I was constantly gossiped about. People who didn’t even know the details of the break up wrote me hateful messages and gossiped about me behind my back. You better believe there were people who came to their OWN conclusions about why I ended the relationship. I did what I felt was the right thing to do and all of the sudden I was the bad guy. I’ve lost a few “friends” and I’m still facing a lot of gossiping and drama that I have learned to ignore… Ain’t nobody got time for that!
I went from having my whole life planned out; who I would spend it with, where I would live, how many kids I would have, what I would name them etc. to not knowing what tomorrow held. After being with someone for 5 years and things not playing out like you and everyone else expected, what the hell do I do next?
I’m writing this because I want other people out there to know that you ALWAYS have a choice. I was stuck in a relationship that turned into a routine and I stayed in it a lot longer than I should have because I was comfortable and I didn’t want to disappoint anyone. Feeling comfortable with someone is NOT a story that ends “happily ever after.”
You HAVE to know when someone’s part in your story is over so you don’t keep trying to raise the dead. YOU are the ONLY person who can make yourself happy! Stop depending on someone else to do it for you or worrying about what everyone around you will think.
You should want to be with someone because they better you as a person and you enjoy your time with them. They don’t degrade you or embarrass you. They support your dreams and you support theirs. Why give your time to someone who does anything less than that?
If you’re in the same situation that I was in please stop wasting time and do something about it.
Of course, it’s going to be tough. I am not only starting from scratch but also having to figure out who I am. I have to admit the process is coming along pretty well and I feel like a brand new person.
I have NO idea what the future holds and I have NEVER been so excited about it.
YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY!
As the first ever #RadioStuntGirl of the Gulf Coast, I couldn’t let Bam Margera come into my territory without hitting him with a challenge. Obviously, he was totally down for it!
Bam and I chugged milk with dye in it and threw it up on canvas’. Yes, It was totally disgusting but so awesome at the same time.
I can’t really say if there was a “winner” because we both rocked it. This stunt lasted about 20 mins. I made the video short and sweet. Mostly because I didn’t want you guys to vomit.
It’s hard to explain how I feel about this. I’m both proud and ashamed at the same time. I’ll probably never get another boyfriend!
PS: puked milk stinks once it’s on a canvas for a few days…
Incase you have never heard of the Alabama Deep Sea Fishing Rodeo, It’s the biggest fishing rodeo out there and it is held every year on Dauphin Island, Alabama.
The day before kickoff, they put on a “Liars Contest” which usually consists of a bunch of drunk old men who get up and tell a tall tale about a fishing trip that they’ve actually never had.
I decided that if these men can get up and tell these boring “lies” I can put my own little twist on it, and guess what? I WON!
Here’s a video of my winning performance. Keep your mind out of the gutter, people!
It’s crazy how just like everyone else, I can remember exactly where I was and what I was doing when I heard the news.
I was in the gym at Grand Bay Middle School. We were having health class during PE that day. When the principle came over the intercom, I didn’t quite understand what exactly was going on and I had NO IDEA what The World Trade Center even was.
If only we would have known at that moment what was really hapening. I remember watching the second plane hit in Coach Cozad’s class. It didn’t seem real.
God Bless America and all the families who lost sons, daughters, husbands, wives, brothers, sisters, grandparents, aunts, uncles and friends that day.
It’s pretty easy to get bogged down watching local news and The Weather Channel until the power goes out.
Looking for a way to stay entertained? Look no further!
It’s called the Hurricane Drinking Game and here’s the rules:
Get your beverage of choice, sit back and ride out the storm.
Every time Isaac is compared to Katrina in any way, DRINK!
When The Weather Channel messes up their geography, Drink!
If a newscaster uses the words “hunker down” or debris, drink.
If you see a satellite image where a storm system is larger than the state, drink.
Whenever there’s a new advisory from the National Hurricane Center, drink.
If there’s an announcement for a shelter that’s full, drink. Drink twice if it’s one that took pets.
If you see on TV a correspondent trying to talk into their microphone while nearly blown over by hurricane-force winds, drink. Drink twice if they actually fall over. Drink three times if you can hear them swear – damn counts.
Drink if the TV shows images of storm surge. Drink twice if the surge splashes onto a roof.
If the TV shows a traffic jam with thousands of cars heading in the same directions, drink. Drink twice if you see one car heading in the opposite direction.
Drink if they show images of street-light signals dangling from a wire in the middle of an intersection. Drink twice if you recognize the intersection.
If you can see rain moving sideways, drink – and stop looking out the window.
If you can see rain moving sideways and you’re looking out a hole in your roof, drink – and move to a safe place in your home.
If you hear a tree fall, drink.
If a car alarm goes off, drink.
If it’s your car alarm, drink the rest of the bottle and do not go outside.
If the power goes out – I mean when the power goes out – drink again.
If you end up playing solitaire, dominos, or any type of board game either on your phone or by candlelight, drink.
Have fun and be safe!
Instead of writing an entire boring blog entry reflecting things that everyone else has already written (I’m not the repetitive type) I’m going to take MY route.
Everyone loves to get their nails done. I got this cute little manicure on the Thursday between the “Chick Fil-a and Gay Day.” So I ask, why not support both?
Qtip gives me a haircut worth 30,000 views
When I kicked off the “Wheel of Intern Alyssa” a listener challenged me to get shot with paintballs. Of course, I didn’t turn it down! That morning I went to walmart to buy the supplies.
First off, I’m a GIRL. I know NOTHING about paintball guns. Apparently, the guy that helped me didn’t either. Considering he sold me the wrong supplies! I had to make it up to the Gulf Coast some how! I figured why not let one of the guys give me a haircut? (My hair is my thing) so here you go!
BTW, this video almost has 30,000 views on youtube. Are there really that many people intrigued by haircuts?!